Stage Fright pt1
I wonder if this is how Eve felt in the garden when she was speaking with the serpent. It’s so familiar. I am comfortable with him. Staring in his eyes I s ee a mystery behind the glare. A piece of me need s to believe that he is trustworthy. A piece of me nee ds to be wanted and desired again. A piece of me d on’t care if it ’s a lie because in th is moment it ’s true. I’m constantly reliving the past. I see the charm and the smile and I hear the lies yet I continue to allow myself to be spoon fed untruths to a growing appetite of low esteem. Surely confidence is non existent because why would I purposely accept deceit just to be held, wanted, needed, desired, any component that may hint to love. I understand me too well, I just want to be loved. Unfortunately, Love don’t want me. At least it’s having a hard time getting close to me because manipulation always seeps through the cracks and I embrace it , relish in it even. While talking to friends they say it will come when